Despite all the coping skills I have learned over the years, sometimes my mental health takes a precipitous ride down the crapper – now would be one of those times.
I’ve been struggling hardcore with depression for the last few weeks. It comes on in waves, hitting me like a steamroller and then passing over…then it is back again. There is a constant dysthymic depression that always haunts me, but these times when the curtain is pulled and I descend into a major depression are the most frustrating.
What causes it? Good question. I don’t know. There are so many theories, so many plausible causes. Stress is certainly a big contributor and anything that destroys my routine causes stress – which the installation of a new HVAC system at the house and the Thanksgiving/Christmas holidays certainly do.
I don’t want to be mean or to be a Grinch…but the holidays are literally painful for me.