Oooohhh, that Makes Me So MAD!

I feel so angry right now…and I’m trying to practice acceptance…I’m trying to accept that this is just the way it is, that I can work towards a different tomorrow, but that I can’t change the past. That I have to accept my limitations and while I want to overcome them, I have to accept that this process is slow and painstaking and beset with relapses.

What am I talking about? Sleep. I went to bed last night and woke up a few hours later, couldn’t fall back to sleep, when I finally did the sun was beginning to rise and I slept until 9:30 am.

It makes me so mad. I just want to go to bed at 11 pm or 12 am and wake up at 7 or 8 am refreshed and ready to tackle the day…but I so frequently don’t.

But I know there is no use. No use being angry at myself for needing sleep. No use in being angry that hours pass me by. All I can do is redeem the time before me….and so I seek to release it and turn my energies to being productive.

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