Day 2 – Fisher Wallace CES Journal.

This is my second full day utilizing CES, I’m continuing my endeavor to keep a detail record of my experiences – especially regarding mood and side effects. 7/12 – 9:30 am Report I had breakfast with my brother, Paul, and so didn’t begin using the CES device until around 9:30… Continue reading

Day 1 – Fisher Wallace CES Journal.

I received my Fisher Wallace Cranial Electrotherapy Stimulator yesterday afternoon in the mail. I utilized it in the evening and now today (Thursday, July 11th) is my first full day utilizing the stimulator. I’m going to try and keep detailed records of my experiences, especially regarding my mood and any… Continue reading

I Cry Out

Round one wasn’t what I thought it’d be Round two I’m struggling to breath 3, 4, 5, 6, 7 times I wondered why I stepped inside this ring I may be knocked down and bruised But I’m here to tell you That I may be knocked down but not for… Continue reading

Walking Wounded

“In depression…faith in deliverance, in ultimate restoration, is absent. The pain is unrelenting, and what makes the condition intolerable is the foreknowledge that no remedy will come–not in a day, an hour, a month, or a minute. If there is mild relief, one knows that it is only temporary; more… Continue reading

Being Broken

“And then I felt sad because I realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they can’t ever be fixed, and this is something nobody ever tells you when you are young and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older as you see the people in… Continue reading

Saturn Devours His Son

When I find myself in the black abyss I invariably see Francisco Goya’s Saturn devorando a su hijo (“Saturn Devouring One of His Sons”). Goya never meant for these works to be public, he painted them on the walls of his home between the years 1819 and 1823. There is something… Continue reading

For the Sake of Science?

Facebook is a passive feed mechanism. It doesn’t matter what your friends are talking about – it will show up in your feed…including if I write angst filled status updates. In this manner, Facebook can be a bit intrusive, bringing information that we don’t particularly want to see, or at… Continue reading

Holding It Together

I’m trying to hold it together… I’m used to episodes that are triggered by situations.1By this I mean there is a biochemical, physiological aspect to my illness, but there is also a contextual aspect, in which certain occurrences (life stressors) can overload me and throw the entire biochemical, physiological balance… Continue reading

Reflections on Life in a Cage.

Introduction I know folks have been a bit worried about me of late. My Facebook statuses turned brooding and perhaps despairing and Edvard Munch’s The Scream for my profile picture and Gustave Dore’s illustration of one of the many regions of Dante’s hell intensified these concerns. I’ve shared many times… Continue reading

Summary and Response to Treating Scrupulosity in Religious Individuals Using Cognitive-Behavioral Therapy

Introduction This is a summary, select quotations, and responses from myself to Jonathan D. Huppert and Jedidiah Siev’s article “Treating Scrupulosity in Religious Individuals Using Cognitive-Behavioral Therapy” as published in Cognitive and Behavioral Practice 17 (2010) pp. 382-392. It is perhaps the best article I have read for practitioners or patients… Continue reading