Acceptance and Endeavor

Why I Try I saw my psychiatrist last Friday. I drive forty-five minutes into Philadelphia to see him, and then an hour or more back out (rush hour seems to begin earlier and earlier these days). For those who know me – this is a lot of travel…but improving my… Continue reading

Why Do We Hate Them?

There are those people in our lives who we find difficult to love. More often than note, it seems those who are most difficult to love are those we know best and deepest, with whom we desire(d) to have relationship and yet where/are frustrated in our endeavor…MacDonald offers a fascinating… Continue reading

For My Scrupulous Heart.

Scrupulosity is my constant enemy. Many experience increasing peace the closer they seek to draw to God, I experience increasing angst. Others can find satisfaction in the level of their devotion, for me every advancement in devotion only reveals more horribly the abyss out of which I seek to climb…… Continue reading

Encouragement for the Hopeless

A Christian author/speaker/teacher I respect is Kenneth Boa. He has written a number of useful books for Christians and offers up many of his materials for free via the web. I recently stumbled upon one of his quotes I find encouraging when I feel overwhelmed with the tasks God has… Continue reading

Irregular People.

“Irregular people are not always capable of changing lifelong personality patterns. They are like a blind person…who cannot make himself see.” – 124. I’m always looking for books on difficult people and how to cope with them…By difficult I mean that individual who no matter how you interact with them manages to infuriate, depress,… Continue reading

Medice, cura te ipsum!

[Medice, cura te ipsum is the Latin translation of the Greek Ἰατρέ, θεράπευσον σεαυτόν. In English we are familiar with it as “Physician, heal thyself.” It was spoken by Jesus in Luke 4:23] If only my problems were as easy as to fix as everyone else’s problems. No, I don’t really mean that… Continue reading

I Exercised.

This is my shirt after riding my stationary bike for two hours – around 1.25 hrs. in I begin sweating profusely – which continues until I dismount at which time my body suddenly realizes it is no longer overheating and immediately begins complaining that I am wearing a soaking wet… Continue reading

It Was The Best of Times, It Was the Worst of Times.

“It was the best of times, it was the worst of times, it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness, it was the epoch of belief, it was the epoch of incredulity, it was the season of Light, it was the season of Darkness, it was… Continue reading

Please Don’t Paralyze Me.

I function pretty well in most areas of my life – but I have real difficulty with anything relating to the law. I used to do my income taxes myself – err, try to do them – but I gave up and now go to H&R Block…I could never decide… Continue reading

My OCD in 2002, I was eighteen.

I’ve been reading through my own journal entries…trying to understand some aspects of myself more. Came upon the following entry from February 11th 2002 – twelve years later. Crap! I hate my life. Why must I always be convicted of the smallest nothings? Why cannot I live like any other… Continue reading