When Islands of Meaning Sink Beneath Us

Quote from Douglas Groothuis: "I know there is a larger meaning behind it all, but I cannot parse it out day by darkening day."

I subscribe to Christianity Today and in their most recent issue (Nov. 2015, Vol. 59, Num. 9) they have an article by Douglas Groothuis, a well-known professor and author of theology and philosophy with the title “When Islands of Meaning Sink Beneath Us.” (pp. 50-55) The title alone lifted my… Continue reading

When the Zombies Keep Coming.

Sleep settled on me before I wanted it to – 11:30 pm. Then released me from its grasp before I desired – 2 am. It refuses to return for several hours, begrudgingly settling over me at 6 am. Having insomnia is frustrating, having it with zombies only amplifies this frustration.… Continue reading

Five Weeks of Light Therapy

Introduction I’ve been blogging over the last number of weeks about my experiences with light therapy. I now have six full weeks of data – one week demonstrating what was a typical pre-light therapy nap pattern and the other five post-light therapy nap pattern. The aggregate data seems to indicate… Continue reading

The Hidden Price of Greatness

I recently finished a small volume entitled The Hidden Price of Greatness by Ray Beeson and Ranelda Mack Hunsicker. It is subtitled, “Encouragement from the lives of well-known Christians whose suffering produced spiritual growth.” The book, including bibliography clocks in at 169 pp. I’ll be honest, I didn’t read the volume… Continue reading

Have Mercy On Me

Who and Why JJ Heller has been, without contest, the most important musical artist in my struggles with anxiety. I’m listening to her song Have Mercy on Me and bawling my eyes out…something which I’ve been doing little of in recent weeks.1For a long time I needed to cry, but then… Continue reading

When My Heart Aches…A Prayer.

This is from an old book I stumbled upon that contains several hundred prayers by Floyd W. Tomkins – an individual whom I know nothing about, other than that his heart for God shines through in every prayer. This is not his entire prayer (though his prayers are short –… Continue reading

Is This What Normal Feels Like?

I’ve struggled throughout my life with OCD – for which I now take 60 mg daily of Prozac. I’ve struggled with ADD – for which I now take 20 mg daily of Adderall XR (extended release). I’ve struggled with dysthymia and major depressive episodes – for which I now take… Continue reading

Do We All Have OCD?

Inevitably, when I share that I have Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD) someone says, “I think we all have some OCD.” I imagine that most people are trying to normalize my experience – that is – make me feel like I’m not alone. Unfortunately, it can oftentimes come across to me (and… Continue reading

Well, That is Embarrassing

I have been on the obsessive side of self-conscious for as long as I can remember. Some of this is the result of my Obsessive Compulsive Disorder – but much of it I can’t foist off onto the OCD and must own as mine.1The OCD is mine as well, but… Continue reading

Wait a Second…

I saw recently that Netflix had added the recent film (The Other Woman) about Charles Dickens (and his mistress) to the available titles. I decided to watch it tonight while exercising on my recumbent. The film started off strangely – in modern day. I thought perhaps they were going to… Continue reading