When the Zombies Keep Coming.

Sleep settled on me before I wanted it to – 11:30 pm. Then released me from its grasp before I desired – 2 am. It refuses to return for several hours, begrudgingly settling over me at 6 am. Having insomnia is frustrating, having it with zombies only amplifies this frustration.… Continue reading

Wait a Second…

I saw recently that Netflix had added the recent film (The Other Woman) about Charles Dickens (and his mistress) to the available titles. I decided to watch it tonight while exercising on my recumbent. The film started off strangely – in modern day. I thought perhaps they were going to… Continue reading

Day 36 (8/15) – Fisher Wallace CES Stimulator Report.

I took the day off. I was doing okay emotionally – but I felt any additional burden would probably drop me into the pits. I used the CES in the morning, by 10:45 am I was tired and took a nap (1 hr.), I’d take two more naps (2:30 pm… Continue reading

Neil Hilborn Gives Us OCD

This is an amazing piece of slam poetry by Neil Hilborn about falling in love and struggling with OCD. It includes brief strong language (f-word). Continue reading

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“…but Yahweh will give you there a trembling heart, failing of eyes, and pining of soul. 66 Your life will hang in doubt before you. You will be afraid night and day, and will have no assurance of your life. 67 In the morning you will say, “I wish it… Continue reading

Day 35 – Fisher Wallace CES Stimulator Report

8/14 – 9 AM Report I’m still stable, I have an appointment at 9:30 and don’t get a chance to use the CES amongst other busyness. 8/14 – 11:30 AM Report The appointment throws me for a loop. I feel exhausted and unstable. It relates to my ongoing crisis –… Continue reading

Day 33 – Fisher Wallace Stimulator Report.

8/12 – 2:15 AM Report I didn’t want to stop working on migrating the CCC website from Bluehost to DigitalOcean halfway, so I stayed up and completed the work around 1:15 am. I then used the CES and attempted to fall asleep – I’d finally enter dreamland around 2:15 am.… Continue reading

Days 30, 31, 32 – Fisher Wallace CES Stimulator Report.

8/9 Report Friday was a productive catchup day after being away since the 2nd. I saw my psychologist, picked up refills of my medications, used the CES in the early afternoon, paid the bills, made deposits, checked emails, and so on. I also squeezed in some time to relax –… Continue reading

The Way I Feel Sometimes.

“22 Moses returned to Yahweh, and said, “Lord, why have you brought trouble on this people? Why is it that you have sent me? 23 For since I came to Pharaoh to speak in your name, he has brought trouble on this people; and you have not rescued your people… Continue reading

Days 21, 22, 23 – Fisher Wallace CES Stimulator

7/31 – 7:00 AM Report [Also included in previous post as Postscript] I am waking from a night of disturbing and strange dreams. I am concerned. Have I slept in late? Is it 10 am? But my body feels heavy and I roll over, fitfully sleeping for a few minutes… Continue reading